It's never good enough

two years, and it sometimes feels like nothing has changed. you don't care about me, when i care so deeply for you. This feeling isnt returned, or are you just really good at hiding it? there is no bond between us that i can see, and no matter how much i try, how much i give, how my time i spend, it never gets any better. You're no athlete, and i accept that about you, but im always tryin to make you better. to make US better, cuz all i wanted from you, all i EVER wanted was for us to become a team. to be able to compete with you, and show you off. Im tired of hearing that i have a bad horse. tired of hearing how scared they are of you, when you've done nothing. im tired of racing, and always running at the back because you're to lazy to give it you're all, always coming in a couple yards behind everybody else.
but you know wut? even though you make me so frustrated sometimes, im SO proud of you and everything we have accomplished together. you make everything alright when my life is falling downward and i wish i could see u everyday, but for now, i cant. when we are out there in those gymkhanas, even though they aren't serious, and there isnt very many experienced riders, we still do so well. you're turns are so tight, we practically spin around and head for home. you make me smile again, when ive done nothing but frown.
you're a part of me like breathing <3 you're all i could hope for.... now won't you just be my friend?